Everything’s Bullshit.

I listened to Angels and Airwaves today, and it reminded me what an ASSHOLE you are.
I hope that when you hear them, it reminds you what an asshole you are, too.

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Always My Lover

we met
in what felt like
prime
though in my mind
i am always past it
and always looking back
two years on it
you were sophisticated
french
smiling with your eyes
i knew
i could trust you
and i say that
never
in reference to men
so here we are
friends
one year after
a one year relationship
and it is
with much definative clarity
that we were not meant
to be together
but we were meant
to [...]

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Dirt on Her Shoes

There was never a moment
When decency was NOT an option
The tax was never placed
On common friendship
It was always there
For free
 
Free
Funny the lack of value
That can be placed
On something as
Fundamental
As friendship…
 
A smart woman
A kind woman
A woman you can call
When you need advice
A listening ear
A woman who already knows
The weaknesses you try
To hide
And DOES NOT [...]

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Dare You Deny Me?

Caught
too many times
by your staring eyes
caged bunny
i am
to be beneath you
your eyes
have lost me
carried me along
the sands
then left me
for the tide
i can’t abuse you
and it
KILLS ME
how can you
hold back an erection
like a rude thought
an offensive
vulgar
gesture
i CANNOT comprehend
how your hands
can recall
the softness
of my lengthy legs
and not long
to find their way
back-
between them
i so teased
by the angles
of your [...]

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Bar Man

You could fit him
In a box
Really
Buy him at Safeway groceries
On your way
Home from work
Sweet
California made
Comes in one size:
Temporary
 
They don’t sell him
At Whole Foods
(Not organic enough)
And if you look
Very closely
On the date of purchase
You’ll notice
He expires
In about three months
 
So, you see,
Really
The indications
Are all right there
On the [...]

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Comfort

Stained
Plum Lips
Picture them
As I feel
You panting
Against my neck
The sound
Of hunger
I know it well
Play it back
To you
As I turn around
Succumbing
And seducing
Strumming leg
Across your torso
Like a violin,
Music rising up
And holding
At crescendo—
Oh, the places
We’d go
With stringed metaphors—
Tell me,
 Who’s playing who?
 
Pocket
The moment
When honesty
Clutched your thigh
And massaged
My breast
When agonizing
Longing
Held up our sleep,
Two frustrated [...]

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To Bite You

 
 
Ripe plum-
Violet
Spotted
Sun-stained
Sweet
I trace slowly
The thin shield
That holds
Its succulent juices
From my lips
And all that desire it
 
I feel the delicate
Vulnerable curve
Of the soft fruit
Nature has grown
For me
To put to my mouth
On this day
I so parched
And undeserving
Can think of nothing
But to devourer
This fine plum
At its peak.
 

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the old place

science
there is always that
one thing that stays
consistent
reliable
in his life
8 years
and I an acquaintance
or a stranger?
these halls of lab
i remember the orange-y,
chemical scent
the summer i spent
here with him
his first summer
in California
i felt so excited
and confused
like his life was taking off
and mine was
undetermined
i don’t think now
i ever knew
why he loved me
when i could never
offer all of myself
but [...]

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does he know?

when mornings waine
and i so tired
have no desire to tread the day
does he know
he keeps me going?
 
when i see his eyes
have lost their way
and pain has seeped
into his fair skin
does he know
i long to hold him?
 
when he speaks
of love–his fascinations
his philosophies
his understated desires
does he know
that i could be them?
 
and when he walks away
his mind always sailing
contemplating [...]

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Validation

She swayed with ease
Not too bold
Not too sexy
Owned the room
But did not advertise
Did not bemuse the crowd
With her breasts
Or any of so many
Unsubtle ways
She wore sheer gloss
Didn’t paint her nails
Clinked lightly to
Her clear, bubbly cocktail
And perused
The eclectic scene
 
Seeking a mix
Of Clark Gable
And James Dean–
Someone who would
Approach her with confidence
Tell her what she [...]

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